The Spectre of Disappointment

Today was a very disappointing and a sad day. It was a day when my future panned out as well as stalled for some time. On this day of ironies, changes for the future have been abundant. It is slowly sinking in, but wether or not it will be taken in a positive way is a different matter. I will just sum up these disappoint ments in this short passage.

It is a hot day in my hometown,
and i have just come home from a task.
The disappointment and sadness is sinking in,
and plans of the future seem distant.

The disappointment is too great,
and i cannot hide it.
All the work in the heat, coming to nothing,
is something which my mind and body could not take.

I wonder all afternoon what should be done.
What does the immediate future hold?
So, i begin to think positive, hiding the disappointment,
and things seem to brighten, like the Sun during day.

But, alas, news comes of leaving my home town in a few months.
The time span this time could be permanent,
and that i will never see my beautiful town again.
The sadness has now set in, and i start to think again.

When shall this vanish?
When shall things be the same again?
The answer to this is that it cannot be the same,
because that is how life is, on the move.

I have not thought of the memories,
of my friends and the peace and the quiet.
The coolness of winter, and the warmth of the people,
of the people whom i talked and also played.

I guess life is of disappointments and sadness,
the so called reality of life.
Happiness can be cherished only in bursts,
but real life will always test an individual to the limits.