My regrets

So far, my life has gone on well. Life is going from strength to strength, and the future looks good ahead. However, along this path, there have been several bumps, and there have been some which have been very regretful. Some personal regrets will not be highlighted in all this, but some incidents have really shook me, and i wish that this had not hapened.

My first regret has been that my life in school was extremely bad. Majority of this regret is because of me, for i was very immature. In school, i never was confident, and i always thought from the heart and not from the head. For all this, i was in the recieving end of all bad jokes from my school colleagues. To add to all this, i was a very average student, never challenged anybody both intellectually and Sportingly, thus i was considered a useless person. I was never happy, never made another people happy, i was a complete wreck. They say that the best days in the life of an individual comes during school days, i never had that privilege. This is perhaps the biggest regret that I had, and it was all my doing.

The second is a spillover of the school days in the College days. Junior college semed to be an extension of those bad days in school, and even here i suffered from an inferiority complex. I never made a lot of friends, this too was all my doing. It seemed that life had hit rock bottom, and i was now in the heart of a long, dark tunnel.

Then, somehow, things started looking up. I secured admission in a field that was suited to my liking, and then i was a changed man. I made friends, lots of them, and i could speak up confidently on anything. No longer did i suffer from Inferiority complexes, i was finally the person that i wanted to be. I was Myself.

However, another incident occured that i regret even today. While coming home from college, i met a man who was lost. He asked me some money to direct him to a Bus Stop. He said that he is a stranger and that he is lost in this city. I first dismissed him as a beggar and someone very untrustworthy. But, then, he started crying, and said, "Please do not consider me a beggar. I am lost in this City and i have also lost my money. Please help me". But, i had no money. Just a few minutes back, i had spent the remaining money in stuffing myself with food. Now, i had none to help him out. I replied that i had no money and then he just left.

It is perhaps this incident that I have the maximum regret. I should have saved the money, so that i could have at least helped the poor man. The second thing is that i allowed myself to distrust the man. If only, my mind was open and sensitive to the man's plight, i would have not left him like that. It was then i realized that it is just no use to be suspicious. Like Elvis Presley said, "We can't go on living, with Suspicious Minds", i agree with this.

The only way i can overcome this regret is when i meet someone similar and help out. Only perhaps will i achieve sensitivity and understanding, and alow my mind and heart to shatter this bubble of Suspicion.